would you ever dye your hair a pastel color?
i recently took a chance to see what i'd look like with white-ish hair, using photoshop hahah
but then i realised it wouldn't look too good, and that i am very attached to my red hair
and to get it any pastel color i would have to bleach my hair. which would kill it.
what are your plans and wishes for the future?
i try not to think or plan too much for the future.
it relies on my body how much i would be able to do.
have you ever thought about being a youtuber?
hah i actually have, because it's been requested some times already
but really, i'm a terrible speaker, i get so uncomfortable.
and what on earth would i talk about!
how did you meet Hans?
we met at first class of highschool! i remember seeing her and thinking she looked so cool hahah
within days we pulled towards eachother, and became friends.
and have been ever since!
hans and me at age 14 (?)
what is your favourite band?
i never really have one favourite band, but there are ones i listen to more than others
for example i am very fond of Alt J, Sara Schiralli, CW Stoneking, Stromae and First Aid Kit
how did you get your haircolor?
allrighty, once and for all.
my hair is naturally dark brown, i never bleached my hair
at first i used Guhl, copper red (left)
and let it bleach by the sun (red dye easily bleaches)
a few years later i started to dye my hair with Henna plus, red (right)
eventually mixing it with Henna plus, super red
if you could live anywhere in the world, where would you live?
it might sound a little cheesy, but i would live where i live right now.
i have never felt so at home as i do in this city.
i love my home, the friends nearby me, my parents.
however, since a short while i have been thinking of moving to one of the dutch islands
not for long, just a few months. but that's something for the future maybe.
how much money do you spend on your wardrobe?
very little! as i have a lot of sponsored clothes, and the rest is pretty much always thrifted.
and then i'd never pay more than 10 euros for an item.
Deventer has a huge amount of thriftshops and secondhand clothing stores
so i find almost something good every week!
what kind of shoes would you néver wear?
these kind of shoes. i hate the pointy nose, and they seem extremely uncomfortable.
i don't know if it's invasive, but i wanted to know if your problems with weight ended completely or partially?
it's not invasive, it's just a tricky subject, but it seems to help some people with similar problems, so i think it's a good thing to share.
i would say partially, as in it doesn't effect me the way it used to
i have reached a healthy weight, and have been able to contain it for the past 3 years
i can go out for dinner, eat with friends, make myself dinner.
when you meet me, i don't think it even shows in my behaviour anymore.
unless you know me well.
because even though i have made a lot of progress, it's still always around.
i still have bad days, weeks, or months,
in which i struggle with conflicts between my healthy and unhealthy mind.
after a bad day, in which i cannot push my unhealthy self down, i find myself laying in bed at night
planning all kinds of things to lose weight again, promising i will do 'better' tomorrow.
and when i wake up again, i talk some sense into myself.
because i know by now what it means to lose weight.
i know i won't feel skinny, i'd feel even fatter.
i know it's not even about the weight.
i know it consumes time, i would eventually have to gain it all back
in order to live the life i lead now, i need my healthy weight.
i think about ronja and melle, and how i can't take care of them when i'm in a clinic.
i think about my parents, about how much it would hurt them to see me slide back again.
about my friends, that i would lose.
because with eating disorders, there's no room for anything else than the eatingdisorder itself.
then i sigh, push my unhealthy self down, making room for my healthy self.
i make breakfast.
what is your favourite place to go to when you are sad?
the Ijssel river.
the water, the wide open space, wind through my hair and head,
clearing all negative thoughts.
it's a place that calms my mind.
how much of your clothes are thrifted vs bought new?
i'd say 70% thrifted vs 30% bought new
are you bisexual?
i've never fallen in love with a girl, but wouldn't say i never would.
what is your biggest wish?
that all the people and animals i love will lead a happy healthy life.
who was the last person to make a change in your life, except yourself?
i think that would be Laila and Hilde!
my friends here in Deventer.
they have just made me so happy ever since i've known them.
is the netherlands a nice place to live?
i think it is! it's a very free country, with lots of different cultures
the health care is incredibly well, i always realise that if i'd live in america for example, i'd probably
just sit home and stare my days away, because it's that much more expensive there.
the weather however is not the best hah. lot's of rain.
and people from the netherlands are very direct!
which i love, because i am too.
what is your favourite beer?
brand zwaar blond!
but i'd rather drink red wine.
how did you get '' internet famous ' '?
i remember when posting something on Hyves (kind of the dutch Myspace)
and getting a comment that i should really start do Lookbook.nu
at the time it was still invite only, and eventually i got an invite
through there people asked me if i could start a blog, and upload more pictures
and from then on it just kinda snowballed into getting 'internet famous'
my first lookbook shot.
if there are some questions i have not answered in this post
then its because i have answered them in my previous Q&A post
click here to see it
and if this is something you enjoy reading on my blog
i'd be happy to do it more often